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| Charity Anne Burbage - 12/04/1944-14/02/1980 |
[February 14] |
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| 14 February 1980 |
[February 14] |
Warded Private:
I should tell him. I've been thinking about this ever since Benjy died, and I should just tell him that I still love him, that I never stopped. I've been in love with him since I was twenty three. He's my constant, even when we were "just friends," and it seems so stupid to keep this back. I know that tomorrow is a commercial holiday, and we're agreed not to do anything too outrageous for it.
But he needs to know. I won't risk another day going on without him knowing this, and if he thinks it's rushed, at least I know that I said it.
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| 3 February 1980 |
[February 03] |
Warded Private:We all say we know the risks. Diggle died in battle, though. I always thought if anyone got hurt, it would be battle, and not on some quest. It's naive of me, I know. But how many horcrux hunts have we all gone on, and the one none of us ever thought was so dangerous? We went to Atlantis and Cloud Castle and Nimue's Cave and Avalon. All these places just littered with danger. We never really think that someone's house just outside a village is going to be the one that gets someone killed. It's like my mother all over again. The shock of coming home and finding her on the floor, left in that horrible position. I didn't think I'd be able to stand up after the explosion. I've never seen green flames like that before, and to know that a friend was inside them, torn apart until there was nothing left... He's a monster, destroying his soul like that, and then destroying all these families! I don't understand what makes a person do something so horrible, let alone to so many people. They have every right to be angry at us. If the tables were reverse, I would likely have asked them to never set foot in my house again. A lie from me but I wouldn't blame Sarah, Douglas, or Michael if they never wanted to speak to us again. Doc is talking even less than he usually does, and I know that he's destroyed. We're finally on the same page again, but I'd rather he had his friend back. I can't stand to see him suffering like this. He lived with Benjy for so many years after we parted. It was only a few months ago that they stopped sharing a flat. And Iona... Dear Merlin, Iona is stronger than she thinks, but that family has taken so many hits in the last few months that I just don't know how much more they can stand.
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| 30 January 1980 |
[January 30] |
Warded to the Order of the Phoenix:
I don't know how
Problem in Little Hangleton. Gaunt house is gone. Blew up. Benjy sai
Benjy was in it when it exploded. Slytherin's ring is in whatever's left of the house. I don't know what to
His patronus disa
Benjy's dead. There's nothing le
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| 20 January 1980 |
[January 20] |
Warded to Remus Lupin:
I know that looking at your journal is probably the last thing you want to do right now, but I wanted you to know that I am so terribly sorry. There are probably more qualified people, but I wanted you to know that, having been through it so very recently myself, that if you wanted to get away from people, there would be silence and tea here for you.
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| 20 January 1980 |
[January 20] |
Warded to Sirius Black:
Hi, Sirius. I realise we don't know one another well, but I know that you've had your heart stomped on recently.
And I know a particularly wonderful lady who might be interested.
What are your feelings on older women? We're talking one who is fifteen years your senior, but very attractive.
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| 29 December 1979 |
[December 29] |
I know that it's not very fashionable to go out this holiday, what with it being a full moon, but does anyone have any exciting plans?
Warded to Sarah Cornfoot:
I know that it's a tough time of year with John's death, but I want you to know that I'm here for you. Will you let me know if there's anything I can do for you or the family? Even if it's something silly as not wanting to do the dishes.
( Warded to Doc Dearborn )
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| 16 December 1979 |
[December 16] |
Warded Private:
I am neither condemning NOR condoning. I am as neutral as Switzerland claimed.
We wipe people's memories for much, much less than all-out war. We wipe them just so they don't have knowledge of our world. What makes Obliviation any less evil and dangerous, and the Imperius flat out evil? I never understood the double-standard there. I understand that the Imperius is essentially the rape of the mind, but obliviation is cutting off limbs, hacking away bits of the mind, taking away parts of a human being, and if we do not have that, then what is life? And why do we get to control that, to take it away from Muggles?
In times of war, Muggles give their soldiers machine guns, tanks, and atom bombs. In times of war, we give them the tools for mass destruction, and sometimes civilians die in the cross fire. Muggles don't begrudge them this (hell, they flat our REVERE them), and I will not begrudge the Aurors for this. I believe that their sacrifices outweigh whatever reservations I might have about the Unforgiveables. They should be the only line between civilians and criminals, and they must be protected. They are not autonomous, and I trust the Ministry just enough to know that they will be walking on egg shells with how to handle it. I imagine that the first time an Unforgiveable is used, a huge deal will be made of it, the process will be scrutinised from every angle until we're all so tired of hearing about it.
I am glad I am not an Auror, to have this responsibility on my shoulder. I just keep imagining a scene where we're out and fighting, like the Masquerade or the Kings Cross, and with a Death Eater bearing down on Doc, an Auror manages to stop him with a Killing Curse. There are no words for how grateful I would be. I am not so sure that if I came up against a Death Eater, I would be able to be the better person. If I thought for one moment that he was the man - or woman - who tortured and killed my mother, I know that, in a heart beat, I would strike him down with everything I had - permission to use the spell or not. Illegal or not. And I would probably revel in it. What does that say about me?
I've never thought of myself as a vengeful or cruel person. My heart bleeds for all of those lost souls in this war - on both sides - but that's what it is: war. Without the proper tools, what hope do we even have to stop them? Even if we found all of You Know Who's horcruxes and destroyed them, then found and destroyed him, we would still have his Death Eaters to contend with until every one of them was somehow taken into Azkaban or killed. There is no defence against the Curses, and more than enough Aurors have put their lives, fruitlessly, on the line for a group of people who constantly judge their every move. They are only human, and as such, I believe they need all of the fire power to protect not only themselves, but us.
When this is all over, I think I'd like to leave the Wizarding World, get out of Cardiff, and see the world. The natural world, not this world of cement and metal that we've built.
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| 22 November 1979 |
[November 22] |
Warded to Alice Longbottom & Peter Pettigrew:
Alice, I know that you've said you were able to go as of Tuesday and Wednesday. I can put in for Tuesday through Friday myself, no problem. Peter, would you be able to make it Tuesday until whenever we could get back? I don't mean to rush you, I truly don't. But with everyone else gone this weekend, it's making me a little antsy to get moving.
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| 15 November 1979 |
[November 15] |
Warded to Alice Longbottom & Peter Pettigrew:
It looks like we're all together on Cloud Castle. Alice, I know that your schedule is going to be the more difficult to manage, but when will you be able to break away? And you, Peter?
I have to admit that I don't know the first thing about this place. Well, I've heard the stories, of course, but actually going is another thing. I have never heard of anyone - outside of books - who has actually been there, so I suspect we're going to have a bit of fun preparing for this.
I assume there's going to be some high level magic involved to get us there. Do we have any sort of recon on it? Should we ask Caoimhe and Remus if they have any other information?
(Also, as a tiny little side note, are any of your as excited about GOING as I am? I know the reason is an awful one, but CLOUD CASTLE!)
Warded to Caoimhe Sullivan:
I don't mean to bother you, Caoimhe, but I wondered if you had any research on Cloud Castle you wouldn't mind sharing? I know that you have a lot on your plate, and I hate to ask it at such a time, but I promise to make it up to you somehow if you could spare a few moments?
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